PART 11
Phase the Fourth: The Consequence, XXV-XXXIV
XXV
Clare,
restless, went out into the dusk when evening drew on, she who had won him
having retired to her chamber.
The night
was as sultry as the day. There was no coolness after dark unless on the grass.
Roads, garden-paths, the house-fronts, the barton-walls were warm as hearths,
and reflected the noontime temperature into the noctambulist's face.
He sat on
the east gate of the dairy-yard, and knew not what to think of himself. Feeling
had indeed smothered judgement that day.
Since the
sudden embrace, three hours before, the twain had kept apart. She seemed
stilled, almost alarmed, at what had occurred, while the novelty,
unpremeditation, mastery of circumstance disquieted him—palpitating,
contemplative being that he was. He could hardly realize their true relations
to each other as yet, and what their mutual bearing should be before third
parties thenceforward.
Angel had come as pupil to this dairy in the idea that
his temporary existence here was to be the merest episode in his life, soon
passed through and early forgotten; he had come as to a place from which as
from a screened alcove he could calmly view the absorbing world without, and,
apostrophizing it with Walt Whitman—
Crowds of men
and women attired in the usual costumes,
How curious you are to me!—
How curious you are to me!—
resolve upon a plan for plunging into that world anew. But behold, the absorbing scene had been imported hither. What had been the engrossing world had dissolved into an uninteresting outer dumb-show; while here, in this apparently dim and unimpassioned place, novelty had volcanically started up, as it had never, for him, started up elsewhere.
Every
window of the house being open, Clare could hear across the yard each trivial
sound of the retiring household. The dairy-house, so humble, so insignificant,
so purely to him a place of constrained sojourn that he had never hitherto
deemed it of sufficient importance to be reconnoitred as an object of any
quality whatever in the landscape; what was it now? The aged and lichened brick
gables breathed forth "Stay!" The windows smiled, the door coaxed and
beckoned, the creeper blushed confederacy. A personality within it was so
far-reaching in her influence as to spread into and make the bricks, mortar,
and whole overhanging sky throb with a burning sensibility. Whose was this
mighty personality? A milkmaid's.
It was
amazing, indeed, to find how great a matter the life of the obscure dairy had
become to him. And though new love was to be held partly responsible for this,
it was not solely so. Many besides Angel have learnt that the magnitude of
lives is not as to their external displacements, but as to their subjective experiences.
The impressionable peasant leads a larger, fuller, more dramatic life than the
pachydermatous king. Looking at it thus, he found that life was to be seen of
the same magnitude here as elsewhere.
Despite
his heterodoxy, faults, and weaknesses, Clare was a man with a conscience. Tess
was no insignificant creature to toy with and dismiss; but a woman living her
precious life—a life which, to herself who endured or enjoyed it, possessed as
great a dimension as the life of the mightiest to himself. Upon her sensations
the whole world depended to Tess; through her existence all her
fellow-creatures existed, to her. The universe itself only came into being for
Tess on the particular day in the particular year in which she was born.
This
consciousness upon which he had intruded was the single opportunity of
existence ever vouchsafed to Tess by an unsympathetic First Cause—her all; her
every and only chance. How then should he look upon her as of less consequence
than himself; as a pretty trifle to caress and grow weary of; and not deal in
the greatest seriousness with the affection which he knew that he had awakened
in her—so fervid and so impressionable as she was under her reserve—in order
that it might not agonize and wreck her?
To
encounter her daily in the accustomed manner would be to develop what had
begun. Living in such close relations, to meet meant to fall into endearment;
flesh and blood could not resist it; and, having arrived at no conclusion as to
the issue of such a tendency, he decided to hold aloof for the present from
occupations in which they would be mutually engaged. As yet the harm done was
small.
But it was
not easy to carry out the resolution never to approach her. He was driven
towards her by every heave of his pulse.
He thought
he would go and see his friends. It might be possible to sound them upon this.
In less than five months his term here would have ended, and after a few
additional months spent upon other farms he would be fully equipped in
agricultural knowledge and in a position to start on his own account. Would not
a farmer want a wife, and should a farmer's wife be a drawing-room wax-figure,
or a woman who understood farming? Notwithstanding the pleasing answer returned
to him by the silence, he resolved to go his journey.
One
morning when they sat down to breakfast at Talbothays Dairy some maid observed
that she had not seen anything of Mr Clare that day.
"O
no," said Dairyman Crick. "Mr Clare has gone hwome to Emminster to
spend a few days wi' his kinsfolk."
For four
impassioned ones around that table the sunshine of the morning went out at a
stroke, and the birds muffled their song. But neither girl by word or gesture
revealed her blankness. "He's getting on towards the end of his time wi'
me," added the dairyman, with a phlegm which unconsciously was brutal;
"and so I suppose he is beginning to see about his plans elsewhere."
"How
much longer is he to bide here?" asked Izz Huett, the only one of the
gloom-stricken bevy who could trust her voice with the question.
The others
waited for the dairyman's answer as if their lives hung upon it; Retty, with
parted lips, gazing on the tablecloth, Marian with heat added to her redness,
Tess throbbing and looking out at the meads.
"Well,
I can't mind the exact day without looking at my memorandum-book," replied
Crick, with the same intolerable unconcern. "And even that may be altered
a bit. He'll bide to get a little practice in the calving out at the
straw-yard, for certain. He'll hang on till the end of the year I should say."
Four months or so of torturing ecstasy in his
society—of "pleasure girdled about with pain". After that the
blackness of unutterable night.
At this
moment of the morning Angel Clare was riding along a narrow lane ten miles
distant from the breakfasters, in the direction of his father's Vicarage at
Emminster, carrying, as well as he could, a little basket which contained some
black-puddings and a bottle of mead, sent by Mrs Crick, with her kind respects,
to his parents. The white lane stretched before him, and his eyes were upon it;
but they were staring into next year, and not at the lane. He loved her; ought
he to marry her? Dared he to marry her? What would his mother and his brothers
say? What would he himself say a couple of years after the event? That would
depend upon whether the germs of staunch comradeship underlay the temporary
emotion, or whether it were a sensuous joy in her form only, with no substratum
of everlastingness.
His
father's hill-surrounded little town, the Tudor church-tower of red stone, the
clump of trees near the Vicarage, came at last into view beneath him, and he
rode down towards the well-known gate. Casting a glance in the direction of the
church before entering his home, he beheld standing by the vestry-door a group
of girls, of ages between twelve and sixteen, apparently awaiting the arrival
of some other one, who in a moment became visible; a figure somewhat older than
the school-girls, wearing a broad-brimmed hat and highly-starched cambric
morning-gown, with a couple of books in her hand.
Clare knew
her well. He could not be sure that she observed him; he hoped she did not, so
as to render it unnecessary that he should go and speak to her, blameless
creature that she was. An overpowering reluctance to greet her made him decide
that she had not seen him. The young lady was Miss Mercy Chant, the only
daughter of his father's neighbour and friend, whom it was his parents' quiet
hope that he might wed some day. She was great at Antinomianism and
Bible-classes, and was plainly going to hold a class now. Clare's mind flew to
the impassioned, summer-steeped heathens in the Var Vale, their rosy faces
court-patched with cow-droppings; and to one the most impassioned of them all.
It was on
the impulse of the moment that he had resolved to trot over to Emminster, and
hence had not written to apprise his mother and father, aiming, however, to
arrive about the breakfast hour, before they should have gone out to their
parish duties. He was a little late, and they had already sat down to the
morning meal. The group at the table jumped up to welcome him as soon as he
entered. They were his father and mother, his brother the Reverend Felix—curate
at a town in the adjoining county, home for the inside of a fortnight—and his
other brother, the Reverend Cuthbert, the classical scholar, and Fellow and
Dean of his College, down from Cambridge for the long vacation. His mother
appeared in a cap and silver spectacles, and his father looked what in fact he
was—an earnest, God-fearing man, somewhat gaunt, in years about sixty-five, his
pale face lined with thought and purpose. Over their heads hung the picture of
Angel's sister, the eldest of the family, sixteen years his senior, who had
married a missionary and gone out to Africa.
Old Mr
Clare was a clergyman of a type which, within the last twenty years, has well
nigh dropped out of contemporary life. A spiritual descendant in the direct line
from Wycliff, Huss, Luther, Calvin; an Evangelical of the Evangelicals, a
Conversionist, a man of Apostolic simplicity in life and thought, he had in his
raw youth made up his mind once for all in the deeper questions of existence,
and admitted no further reasoning on them thenceforward. He was regarded even
by those of his own date and school of thinking as extreme; while, on the other
hand, those totally opposed to him were unwillingly won to admiration for his
thoroughness, and for the remarkable power he showed in dismissing all question
as to principles in his energy for applying them. He loved Paul of Tarsus,
liked St John, hated St James as much as he dared, and regarded with mixed
feelings Timothy, Titus, and Philemon. The New Testament was less a Christiad
then a Pauliad to his intelligence—less an argument than an intoxication. His
creed of determinism was such that it almost amounted to a vice, and quite
amounted, on its negative side, to a renunciative philosophy which had
cousinship with that of Schopenhauer and Leopardi. He despised the Canons and
Rubric, swore by the Articles, and deemed himself consistent through the whole
category—which in a way he might have been. One thing he certainly was—sincere.
To the
aesthetic, sensuous, pagan pleasure in natural life and lush womanhood which
his son Angel had lately been experiencing in Var Vale, his temper would have
been antipathetic in a high degree, had he either by inquiry or imagination
been able to apprehend it. Once upon a time Angel had been so unlucky as to say
to his father, in a moment of irritation, that it might have resulted far
better for mankind if Greece had been the source of the religion of modern
civilization, and not Palestine; and his father's grief was of that blank
description which could not realize that there might lurk a thousandth part of
a truth, much less a half truth or a whole truth, in such a proposition. He had
simply preached austerely at Angel for some time after. But the kindness of his
heart was such that he never resented anything for long, and welcomed his son
to-day with a smile which was as candidly sweet as a child's.
Angel sat
down, and the place felt like home; yet he did not so much as formerly feel
himself one of the family gathered there. Every time that he returned hither he
was conscious of this divergence, and since he had last shared in the Vicarage
life it had grown even more distinctly foreign to his own than usual. Its
transcendental aspirations—still unconsciously based on the geocentric view of
things, a zenithal paradise, a nadiral hell—were as foreign to his own as if
they had been the dreams of people on another planet. Latterly he had seen only
Life, felt only the great passionate pulse of existence, unwarped, uncontorted,
untrammelled by those creeds which futilely attempt to check what wisdom would
be content to regulate.
On their
part they saw a great difference in him, a growing divergence from the Angel
Clare of former times. It was chiefly a difference in his manner that they
noticed just now, particularly his brothers. He was getting to behave like a
farmer; he flung his legs about; the muscles of his face had grown more
expressive; his eyes looked as much information as his tongue spoke, and more.
The manner of the scholar had nearly disappeared; still more the manner of the
drawing-room young man. A prig would have said that he had lost culture, and a
prude that he had become coarse. Such was the contagion of domiciliary
fellowship with the Talbothays nymphs and swains.
After
breakfast he walked with his two brothers, non-evangelical, well-educated,
hall-marked young men, correct to their remotest fibre, such unimpeachable
models as are turned out yearly by the lathe of a systematic tuition. They were
both somewhat short-sighted, and when it was the custom to wear a single
eyeglass and string they wore a single eyeglass and string; when it was the
custom to wear a double glass they wore a double glass; when it was the custom
to wear spectacles they wore spectacles straightway, all without reference to
the particular variety of defect in their own vision. When Wordsworth was
enthroned they carried pocket copies; and when Shelley was belittled they
allowed him to grow dusty on their shelves. When Correggio's Holy Families were
admired, they admired Correggio's Holy Families; when he was decried in favour
of Velasquez, they sedulously followed suit without any personal objection.
If these
two noticed Angel's growing social ineptness, he noticed their growing mental
limitations. Felix seemed to him all Church; Cuthbert all College. His Diocesan
Synod and Visitations were the mainsprings of the world to the one; Cambridge
to the other. Each brother candidly recognized that there were a few
unimportant score of millions of outsiders in civilized society, persons who
were neither University men nor churchmen; but they were to be tolerated rather
than reckoned with and respected.
They were
both dutiful and attentive sons, and were regular in their visits to their
parents. Felix, though an offshoot from a far more recent point in the
devolution of theology than his father, was less self-sacrificing and
disinterested. More tolerant than his father of a contradictory opinion, in its
aspect as a danger to its holder, he was less ready than his father to pardon
it as a slight to his own teaching. Cuthbert was, upon the whole, the more
liberal-minded, though, with greater subtlety, he had not so much heart.
As they
walked along the hillside Angel's former feeling revived in him—that whatever
their advantages by comparison with himself, neither saw or set forth life as
it really was lived. Perhaps, as with many men, their opportunities of
observation were not so good as their opportunities of expression. Neither had
an adequate conception of the complicated forces at work outside the smooth and
gentle current in which they and their associates floated. Neither saw the
difference between local truth and universal truth; that what the inner world
said in their clerical and academic hearing was quite a different thing from
what the outer world was thinking.
"I
suppose it is farming or nothing for you now, my dear fellow," Felix was
saying, among other things, to his youngest brother, as he looked through his
spectacles at the distant fields with sad austerity. "And, therefore, we
must make the best of it. But I do entreat you to endeavour to keep as much as
possible in touch with moral ideals. Farming, of course, means roughing it
externally; but high thinking may go with plain living, nevertheless."
"Of
course it may," said Angel. "Was it not proved nineteen hundred years
ago—if I may trespass upon your domain a little? Why should you think, Felix,
that I am likely to drop my high thinking and my moral ideals?"
"Well,
I fancied, from the tone of your letters and our conversation—it may be fancy
only—that you were somehow losing intellectual grasp. Hasn't it struck you,
Cuthbert?"
"Now,
Felix," said Angel drily, "we are very good friends, you know; each
of us treading our allotted circles; but if it comes to intellectual grasp, I
think you, as a contented dogmatist, had better leave mine alone, and inquire
what has become of yours."
They
returned down the hill to dinner, which was fixed at any time at which their
father's and mother's morning work in the parish usually concluded. Convenience
as regarded afternoon callers was the last thing to enter into the
consideration of unselfish Mr and Mrs Clare; though the three sons were
sufficiently in unison on this matter to wish that their parents would conform
a little to modern notions.
The walk
had made them hungry, Angel in particular, who was now an outdoor man,
accustomed to the profuse dapes inemptae of the dairyman's somewhat
coarsely-laden table. But neither of the old people had arrived, and it was not
till the sons were almost tired of waiting that their parents entered. The
self-denying pair had been occupied in coaxing the appetites of some of their
sick parishioners, whom they, somewhat inconsistently, tried to keep imprisoned
in the flesh, their own appetites being quite forgotten.
The family
sat down to table, and a frugal meal of cold viands was deposited before them.
Angel looked round for Mrs Crick's black-puddings, which he had directed to be
nicely grilled as they did them at the dairy, and of which he wished his father
and mother to appreciate the marvellous herbal savours as highly as he did
himself.
"Ah!
you are looking for the black-puddings, my dear boy," observed Clare's
mother. "But I am sure you will not mind doing without them as I am sure
your father and I shall not, when you know the reason. I suggested to him that
we should take Mrs Crick's kind present to the children of the man who can earn
nothing just now because of his attacks of delirium tremens; and he agreed that
it would be a great pleasure to them; so we did."
"Of
course," said Angel cheerfully, looking round for the mead.
"I
found the mead so extremely alcoholic," continued his mother, "that
it was quite unfit for use as a beverage, but as valuable as rum or brandy in
an emergency; so I have put it in my medicine-closet."
"We
never drink spirits at this table, on principle," added his father.
"But
what shall I tell the dairyman's wife?" said Angel.
"The
truth, of course," said his father.
"I
rather wanted to say we enjoyed the mead and the black-puddings very much. She
is a kind, jolly sort of body, and is sure to ask me directly I return."
"You
cannot, if we did not," Mr Clare answered lucidly.
"Ah—no;
though that mead was a drop of pretty tipple."
"A
what?" said Cuthbert and Felix both.
"Oh—'tis an expression they use down at
Talbothays," replied Angel, blushing. He felt that his parents were right
in their practice if wrong in their want of sentiment, and said no more.
XXVI
It was not
till the evening, after family prayers, that Angel found opportunity of
broaching to his father one or two subjects near his heart. He had strung
himself up to the purpose while kneeling behind his brothers on the carpet,
studying the little nails in the heels of their walking boots. When the service
was over they went out of the room with their mother, and Mr Clare and himself
were left alone.
The young
man first discussed with the elder his plans for the attainment of his position
as a farmer on an extensive scale—either in England or in the Colonies. His
father then told him that, as he had not been put to the expense of sending
Angel up to Cambridge, he had felt it his duty to set by a sum of money every
year towards the purchase or lease of land for him some day, that he might not
feel himself unduly slighted.
"As
far as worldly wealth goes," continued his father, "you will no doubt
stand far superior to your brothers in a few years."
This
considerateness on old Mr Clare's part led Angel onward to the other and dearer
subject. He observed to his father that he was then six-and-twenty, and that
when he should start in the farming business he would require eyes in the back
of his head to see to all matters—some one would be necessary to superintend
the domestic labours of his establishment whilst he was afield. Would it not be
well, therefore, for him to marry?
His father
seemed to think this idea not unreasonable; and then Angel put the question—
"What
kind of wife do you think would be best for me as a thrifty hard-working
farmer?"
"A
truly Christian woman, who will be a help and a comfort to you in your
goings-out and your comings-in. Beyond that, it really matters little. Such an
one can be found; indeed, my earnest-minded friend and neighbour, Dr
Chant—"
"But
ought she not primarily to be able to milk cows, churn good butter, make
immense cheeses; know how to sit hens and turkeys and rear chickens, to direct
a field of labourers in an emergency, and estimate the value of sheep and
calves?"
"Yes;
a farmer's wife; yes, certainly. It would be desirable." Mr Clare, the
elder, had plainly never thought of these points before. "I was going to
add," he said, "that for a pure and saintly woman you will not find
one more to your true advantage, and certainly not more to your mother's mind
and my own, than your friend Mercy, whom you used to show a certain interest
in. It is true that my neighbour Chant's daughter had lately caught up the
fashion of the younger clergy round about us for decorating the
Communion-table—alter, as I was shocked to hear her call it one day—with
flowers and other stuff on festival occasions. But her father, who is quite as
opposed to such flummery as I, says that can be cured. It is a mere girlish
outbreak which, I am sure, will not be permanent."
"Yes,
yes; Mercy is good and devout, I know. But, father, don't you think that a
young woman equally pure and virtuous as Miss Chant, but one who, in place of
that lady's ecclesiastical accomplishments, understands the duties of farm life
as well as a farmer himself, would suit me infinitely better?"
His father
persisted in his conviction that a knowledge of a farmer's wife's duties came
second to a Pauline view of humanity; and the impulsive Angel, wishing to
honour his father's feelings and to advance the cause of his heart at the same
time, grew specious. He said that fate or Providence had thrown in his way a
woman who possessed every qualification to be the helpmate of an agriculturist,
and was decidedly of a serious turn of mind. He would not say whether or not
she had attached herself to the sound Low Church School of his father; but she
would probably be open to conviction on that point; she was a regular
church-goer of simple faith; honest-hearted, receptive, intelligent, graceful
to a degree, chaste as a vestal, and, in personal appearance, exceptionally
beautiful.
"Is
she of a family such as you would care to marry into—a lady, in short?"
asked his startled mother, who had come softly into the study during the
conversation.
"She
is not what in common parlance is called a lady," said Angel,
unflinchingly, "for she is a cottager's daughter, as I am proud to say.
But she is a lady, nevertheless—in feeling and nature."
"Mercy
Chant is of a very good family."
"Pooh!—what's
the advantage of that, mother?" said Angel quickly. "How is family to
avail the wife of a man who has to rough it as I have, and shall have to
do?"
"Mercy
is accomplished. And accomplishments have their charm," returned his
mother, looking at him through her silver spectacles.
"As
to external accomplishments, what will be the use of them in the life I am
going to lead?—while as to her reading, I can take that in hand. She'll be apt
pupil enough, as you would say if you knew her. She's brim full of
poetry—actualized poetry, if I may use the expression. She lives what
paper-poets only write… And she is an unimpeachable Christian, I am sure;
perhaps of the very tribe, genus, and species you desire to propagate."
"O
Angel, you are mocking!"
"Mother,
I beg pardon. But as she really does attend Church almost every Sunday morning,
and is a good Christian girl, I am sure you will tolerate any social
shortcomings for the sake of that quality, and feel that I may do worse than
choose her." Angel waxed quite earnest on that rather automatic orthodoxy
in his beloved Tess which (never dreaming that it might stand him in such good
stead) he had been prone to slight when observing it practised by her and the
other milkmaids, because of its obvious unreality amid beliefs essentially
naturalistic.
In their
sad doubts as to whether their son had himself any right whatever to the title
he claimed for the unknown young woman, Mr and Mrs Clare began to feel it as an
advantage not to be overlooked that she at least was sound in her views;
especially as the conjunction of the pair must have arisen by an act of
Providence; for Angel never would have made orthodoxy a condition of his
choice. They said finally that it was better not to act in a hurry, but that
they would not object to see her.
Angel
therefore refrained from declaring more particulars now. He felt that,
single-minded and self-sacrificing as his parents were, there yet existed
certain latent prejudices of theirs, as middle-class people, which it would
require some tact to overcome. For though legally at liberty to do as he chose,
and though their daughter-in-law's qualifications could make no practical
difference to their lives, in the probability of her living far away from them,
he wished for affection's sake not to wound their sentiment in the most
important decision of his life.
He observed
his own inconsistencies in dwelling upon accidents in Tess's life as if they
were vital features. It was for herself that he loved Tess; her soul, her
heart, her substance—not for her skill in the dairy, her aptness as his
scholar, and certainly not for her simple formal faith-professions. Her
unsophisticated open-air existence required no varnish of conventionality to
make it palatable to him. He held that education had as yet but little affected
the beats of emotion and impulse on which domestic happiness depends. It was
probable that, in the lapse of ages, improved systems of moral and intellectual
training would appreciably, perhaps considerably, elevate the involuntary and
even the unconscious instincts of human nature; but up to the present day,
culture, as far as he could see, might be said to have affected only the mental
epiderm of those lives which had been brought under its influence. This belief
was confirmed by his experience of women, which, having latterly been extended
from the cultivated middle-class into the rural community, had taught him how
much less was the intrinsic difference between the good and wise woman of one
social stratum and the good and wise woman of another social stratum, than
between the good and bad, the wise and the foolish, of the same stratum or
class.
It was the
morning of his departure. His brothers had already left the Vicarage to proceed
on a walking tour in the north, whence one was to return to his college, and
the other to his curacy. Angel might have accompanied them, but preferred to
rejoin his sweetheart at Talbothays. He would have been an awkward member of
the party; for, though the most appreciative humanist, the most ideal
religionist, even the best-versed Christologist of the three, there was alienation
in the standing consciousness that his squareness would not fit the round hole
that had been prepared for him. To neither Felix nor Cuthbert had he ventured
to mention Tess.
His mother
made him sandwiches, and his father accompanied him, on his own mare, a little
way along the road. Having fairly well advanced his own affairs, Angel listened
in a willing silence, as they jogged on together through the shady lanes, to
his father's account of his parish difficulties, and the coldness of brother
clergymen whom he loved, because of his strict interpretations of the New
Testament by the light of what they deemed a pernicious Calvinistic doctrine.
"Pernicious!"
said Mr Clare, with genial scorn; and he proceeded to recount experiences which
would show the absurdity of that idea. He told of wondrous conversions of evil
livers of which he had been the instrument, not only amongst the poor, but
amongst the rich and well-to-do; and he also candidly admitted many failures.
As an
instance of the latter, he mentioned the case of a young upstart squire named
d'Urberville, living some forty miles off, in the neighbourhood of Trantridge.
"Not
one of the ancient d'Urbervilles of Kingsbere and other places?" asked his
son. "That curiously historic worn-out family with its ghostly legend of
the coach-and-four?"
"O
no. The original d'Urbervilles decayed and disappeared sixty or eighty years
ago—at least, I believe so. This seems to be a new family which had taken the
name; for the credit of the former knightly line I hope they are spurious, I'm
sure. But it is odd to hear you express interest in old families. I thought you
set less store by them even than I."
"You
misapprehend me, father; you often do," said Angel with a little
impatience. "Politically I am sceptical as to the virtue of their being
old. Some of the wise even among themselves 'exclaim against their own
succession,' as Hamlet puts it; but lyrically, dramatically, and even
historically, I am tenderly attached to them."
This
distinction, though by no means a subtle one, was yet too subtle for Mr Clare
the elder, and he went on with the story he had been about to relate; which was
that after the death of the senior so-called d'Urberville, the young man
developed the most culpable passions, though he had a blind mother, whose
condition should have made him know better. A knowledge of his career having
come to the ears of Mr Clare, when he was in that part of the country preaching
missionary sermons, he boldly took occasion to speak to the delinquent on his
spiritual state. Though he was a stranger, occupying another's pulpit, he had
felt this to be his duty, and took for his text the words from St Luke:
"Thou fool, this night thy soul shall be required of thee!" The young
man much resented this directness of attack, and in the war of words which
followed when they met he did not scruple publicly to insult Mr Clare, without
respect for his gray hairs.
Angel
flushed with distress.
"Dear
father," he said sadly, "I wish you would not expose yourself to such
gratuitous pain from scoundrels!"
"Pain?"
said his father, his rugged face shining in the ardour of self-abnegation.
"The only pain to me was pain on his account, poor, foolish young man. Do
you suppose his incensed words could give me any pain, or even his blows?
'Being reviled we bless; being persecuted we suffer it; being defamed we
entreat; we are made as the filth of the world, and as the offscouring of all
things unto this day.' Those ancient and noble words to the Corinthians are
strictly true at this present hour."
"Not
blows, father? He did not proceed to blows?"
"No,
he did not. Though I have borne blows from men in a mad state of
intoxication."
"No!"
"A
dozen times, my boy. What then? I have saved them from the guilt of murdering
their own flesh and blood thereby; and they have lived to thank me, and praise
God."
"May
this young man do the same!" said Angel fervently. "But I fear
otherwise, from what you say."
"We'll
hope, nevertheless," said Mr Clare. "And I continue to pray for him,
though on this side of the grave we shall probably never meet again. But, after
all, one of those poor words of mine may spring up in his heart as a good seed
some day."
Now, as always, Clare's father was sanguine as a
child; and though the younger could not accept his parent's narrow dogma, he
revered his practice and recognized the hero under the pietist. Perhaps he
revered his father's practice even more now than ever, seeing that, in the question
of making Tessy his wife, his father had not once thought of inquiring whether
she were well provided or penniless. The same unworldliness was what had
necessitated Angel's getting a living as a farmer, and would probably keep his
brothers in the position of poor parsons for the term of their activities; yet
Angel admired it none the less. Indeed, despite his own heterodoxy, Angel often
felt that he was nearer to his father on the human side than was either of his
brethren.
To be continued